My baby is turning four and I am having all the feels lately as a mama. With February right around the corner, it recently has hit me that my baby is not a baby anymore and is turning into a little boy!
As I sit here tearing up scrolling through pictures, I can’t help but think to myself how lucky I am to be Parker’s mom. It’s so beautiful and amazing to see his personality shape into the little human he is today. Bob and I can’t get enough of what comes out of this kids mouth-its unbelievable how smart he is! Every day were laughing at something he says or does, and its so amazing to watch how his mind works. His favorite color is pink, he loves superheroes and he wants to be a garbage truck man when he grows up. He doesn’t use a blanket (never has) and probably has a larger vocabulary than I do. He hates the bath and loves ice cream sandwiches. I have never met a cooler kid in my life, and I am so happy to get to go through life as his mama. (I know all my friends reading this are probably giggling, because they can all here him right now saying…mama, mama, mama, mama!!)
I remember bringing Parker home from the hospital and I will never forget that drive home. We were so scared! I sat in the back of the car next to him with tears running down my face looking at this little bundle of joy that was ours to bring home. We live about 10 minutes away from the hospital and it probably took us at least 40 minutes to get home because we drove so slow. I remember each month that would go by I would say, “This is my favorite month”, but in all reality it just gets better and better each day being a parent. It’s such an emotional and unexplainable feeling being a parent and I feel so humble to be able experience being a mom.
I remember thinking to myself, how am I going to do this? How do I know if he has had enough to eat? How do I breastfeed? How am I going to be a mom, and still work full time (or my usually 80-90 hours per week?) But then that mom instinct kicked in, just like everyone says it will, and we figured the rest out one day at a time.
Being Parker’s mom has been the best experience of my entire life and I feel so incredibly lucky that he is my little boy! I wish that I could make time stand still and hold on to these moments forever because they are so precious to me. As I look at my life, I feel 100% fulfilled every day because I have a this beautiful baby boy in my life, and I am SO appreciative of him. These past four years have been the best years of my life. I can’t wait to continue to watch my little dude grow and guide him along his journey called life!